what happened to this girl?

"i miss the friendship we used to have. i miss the days when you would come over late at night, and we would flush our cares away with trips to the only store in town. i miss all of the things we used to do together, all of the shit that shouldn't really matter now, but as far as i am concerned, it still does. i am sorry i pushed you away. i did it before you could get a chance to do it to me - well, anymore than you already had. i'm so sorry."